As the saying goes, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans!” And while I know that God does not laugh at us but only loves us, there is some truth to the idea that whatever we come up with in our human minds as the “best plan” is probably nothing compared to what the loving mind of a God that creates universes can conceive for us.
Years ago when I was an avionics engineer I had no idea my life would turn out as it did today. I only knew that I wasn’t passionate about what I was doing. I was working long hours, and I was required to make other people’s lives miserable by calling them in to work long hours as well. I had no clue what else I would do. My parents had paid quite a lot for my college education. I was “successful” by other people’s standards. But I didn’t love my life. So I prayed, “Dear God, help me go to bed grateful, wake up happy, and do something that helps people for a living.” Then I proceeded to try to “figure out” the answer to my own prayer.
I decided the only thing I knew other than engineering was Reiki and so I would get a job at a local spa. I called up the spa and made a complete fool of myself on the phone, hung up and felt my life was over! I was trapped in a job I didn’t love! Oh the drama! I laugh looking back. That day, to console myself, I took off hiking. I climbed Camelback mountain and when I looked down at the city of Phoenix, and its huge grid of roadways, I heard the angels telling me that there were many paths to a destination. I had been so narrowly focused on one I thought that was the only solution for me. God had a much bigger view. So finally, I let go. I embarked on a journey of personal growth that eventually led me to the life I am living today. It wasn’t an overnight revelation or a sudden insight. When I first felt energy, that was a sudden revelation! I knew I wanted to know all about it! But what to do for a living was an entirely different question.
I joke that my current job started in a ladies room. I had been doing readings at a Halloween party that my mentor insisted I attend. I argued with her that I was not good enough to do readings in public yet. She basically said, “Too bad, you are going to do it!” So there I was – scared stiff and doing readings anyway! When I finally took a break and went to the ladies room, I overheard the gossip from the next stall. It was a woman’s voice, saying, “I just got a great reading from that girl at the corner table.” I sighed with relief! She was talking about me! Suddenly it seemed possible that I could make a living doing what I had come to love. This same dear mentor pushed me to apply for a job as “psychic in the window” at a local metaphysical bookstore. I surrendered, prayed like crazy to do a good job, and got the job.
And so the story continues until this day… nothing I once imagined about how my life would look came true, but everything I wanted and more was presented. In fact, here I am again, soon to embark on a new adventure of filming an internet TV show. I didn’t “make” this happen at all. I have to do a lot of work now that it has been presented to me, but I had little to do with the Divine timing that arranged this opportunity.
I tell people about their futures often in readings, but as for mine… I like not knowing. I think of a life lived in anticipation of God’s miracles and goodness as a journey of unwrapping the Presents of the Presence 🙂