Ever since the first gaze with Braco in February I have felt amazing. For the first time in my life my monthly cycles have been pain free. My life is flowing with grace and ease. I feel joy and energy running so strongly it blows me away. And so it was a surprise, and not such a great one when I woke up earlier last week with both cramps and hot flashes. I started down an old familiar road in my mind. “Oh no! I’m going to hurt for days. I had plans. have to work all day. And next month this is going to come at a horrible time.” My mind, for the first time in months was turning into a runaway train. By the grace of God I stopped myself. “Look at what you are creating,” I told myself. “Let’s do something better.”
So I stopped the whining, got honest without the drama, and prayed. “God, angels, I am discouraged! I’ve felt so good for so long and this morning I hurt. I want help. I feel cranky, tired, and crampy. I want the pain to go away. I want to feel and know the truth of Your Love flowing through me again. I want loving interactions today with my clients, and I want to experience these cycles as a time of feminine grace.” I focused on what this better reality would feel like. I used my imagination to remember feeling wonderful. I watched a few Braco gaze scenes on DVDs, did my morning energy exercises, and in no time, I was feeling the powerful energy of God’s love flowing through me so strongly once again. My cramps disappeared. My joy returned, and the day turned out to be amazing. One dear client brought me flowers. Others brought sweet words. My in-box was flooded with a sudden burst of sweet ‘thank you’ notes. The next day the angels suggested I visit a ne arby thrift store where I found incredible bargains on some very pretty feminine clothes. What could have been a painful, fear-ridden disaster of a week turned out to be a couple of very blessed and beautiful days.
Our prayers are most powerful when we are as authentic and honest as little children. A hurting child does try to fake being positive. A child does not say, “I know I created this and I have something to learn, but please if you don’t mind could you help me?” A hurting child screams, cries, and reaches out for assistance until their pains are soothed. Later they look back and learn.
The storms in our soul pass quickly too, when we can be that honest. God already sees beyond our so-called imperfections and recognizes the deepest truth of our being. Our job is to do the same. Can we, when we are tired / cranky / sad / etc., say to ourselves and God, “I am tired / cranky / sad / etc. but underneath I know there is a greater truth to me. Underneath all that I know Your Love is present. Help me feel that truth and experience that love once again!” This prayer is so sincere, so beautiful, and so revered in the heavens. We become as little children, crying from our hearts, calling honestly for love, and Love by its nature must respond.
God loves you. The angels love you. The question for us to decide is whether or not we can choose to love ourselves no matter what. In so doing, we open up to the very great love, grace, and assistance that is available in every moment of our lives.
Try it next time you are down. Talk sweetly to yourself. Be gentle and kind. Give yourself a healthy, private, outlet for your feelings. Pray with sincerity. Soon you will feel the positive love and energy that is always there begin to emerge once again from the deepest and truest levels of your being.