I was not born a very patient person. Only the angels and life have taught me the peace that comes with patiently knowing God is in charge and working for my joy. I do my part by focusing on the good in my life now, and the good that I wish to create, and then I trust that the rest will be handled handled by heaven. It was not always this way!
Years ago I wanted to get my first book, “Whispers of the Spirit,” published. I prayed, “God tell me where to get this book published!” The angels answered, “It will not be published for some time. You have not yet grown into a space where you can be out in public. It will be published after your second book.” Being young, Aries, and impatient, that wasn’t OK with me. “Just give me the name of a publisher!” I insisted. And so the angels (very patiently, I might add) gave me name after name of publishers who rejected my work!! I finally wrote one back and asked her to tell me why I was being rejected. “You don’t have enough experience in your field,” she told me. I surrendered.
Years later, I wrote, “Love is the River,” a book about surrendering to the flow of Divine Grace in your life. The book rewrote my life as I wrote it. I learned patience, right timing, trust, and faith in the goodness of God and the incredible love that guides our lives. I decided to self publish rather than getting a publisher and all that entailed. And sure enough, my other book was published after this one! The angels were right. I was not ready to share my heart and the intimate details of my growth into who I am today back when I thought I was. In fact it would have devastated me. One of my now favorite reviews of “Whispers” was something to the effect of, “I couldn’t understand why I had wasted my money buying this book about a depressed an angry woman until I got into it and realized she was showing us how to get out of that space!” Had I published that book when I was younger, I would have heard criticism in that statement, not praise. I would not have been ready to be so vulnerable. God knew. God was protecting my heart all along.
Likewise I have “forced the river” on many things in my life only to regret the choices. I want a boyfriend now, I told the universe once. A guy showed up. I smugly was proud of my creation. He matched my four page list. I had forgotten a few items, like “mature” and “responsible!” Now I leave my entire life up to God and I only intend and manifest what arises from within my heart, not what my mind thinks I need to be happy! Eerything is so simpler and pretty amazing as a result. I am happy now even as I am creating more.
When we get impatient we contrive ways to force the river. We think about what we think will make us happy, instead of just trying to BE happy now. It is like chasing a moving target that we never quite catch, or if we do, for only a fleeting moment. I used to be happy when I crossed off the to do list items, or when I achieved something, but now I am happy in the process of life! Life is happening now, and now, and now. Find the good now. Create the good now. Don’t wait. Recently I was getting very impatient with the fact that I have a leaky elderly dog. I had to find a way to embrace the moment as I put on my rubber gloves and commenced the cleanup process. “How do I bring love into THIS?” I prayed. I heard the angels giggling. They know humor works with me. “We have a prayer for you”, they said as I felt ripples of their laughter course through me like ocean waves of love. “Do tell,” I replied, knowing this one must be good. “Dear Lord, Deliver us from pee-vil now and forever Amen.” I burst out laughing, cleaned up the mess, and focused on how much I loved my dog. Puddles may be a fact of life on and off for awhile here, but at least I can bring light, humor, and love even into this situation.
If we seek out and create good in our lives now, then we can be patient waiting for more. If we insist on focusing on all that is wrong, then we are by our very nature going to be quite impatient, and as the angels said so much more delicately than I, we will screw up our manifestations by focusing on all that we perceive to be “wrong.” Better to say, lets make now as good as possible, create more light and love now, and then I know there will be more.
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