I recently caught a little bug guy staring at his own reflection on the window. I bet he doesn’t sit and say to himself, “Am I too green? Why do I look like a leaf? My legs are too skinny. My nose is too big!” He’s just looking at his own reflection with wonder. “Who is that? What is that?” The answer of course is the same no matter who or what form we look at… all forms are a manifestation of God’s love. Some know it more than others. The more I identify with this light, the happier my body becomes.
As many of you reading this newsletter know, I have had more than my share of physical lessons over the years. When my spirit does not get my attention easily, eventually my body will! A broken foot and ripped tendon years ago taught me to slow down, take care of myself more, and live in greater balance. Parasites taught me where and when I was allowing other energies to usurp my own knowing and feeling. Twisted intestines showed me when I stuffed my fears and feelings years ago and now remind me to be extra kind to my body. As a result of these lessons I’ve had a lot of practice identifying with myself as a soul in a body, rather than looking at the body and thinking “that’s me!”
I first remember doing this in high school. My first job was at a local fast food restaurant. I remember looking in the mirror and feeling what I perceived to be the indignity of being a 16 year old girl wearing rust brown colored polyester pants, glasses, braces, rubber bands across her teeth and a nice big button that said, “Hi! I’m a Big Mac Builder!” I remember the day I decided I was not going to win friends with my looks, and so, as shy as I was, I decided I would have to use my personality! I remembering just making a decision that I would act outgoing and friendly, no matter how uncomfortable that was. To my surprise and delight, the other kids responded as if I really was!
I recently thanked God that I have learned to identify with my soul more than my body, when I had to film the current “Ann & the Angels” series, looking like a walrus from the waist down! I had a twisted ileocecal valve the night before, and using everything I was about to teach, I managed a miraculous healing! By early morning I was untwisted, out of pain and ready to go! There was only one minor detail. I was still seriously larger than usual, and the only pants I fit into were the yoga shorts I brought in case I wanted to exercise!
So there I was, in the studio, in front of a professional camera, in yoga shorts and nice tops! It became a joke before each episode that they had to “film above the bloat line!” I had to meet new guys who were helping film, and as well a few old friends who dropped by while I was looking my not-so-finest!
In the past I would have been mortified, but after years of working with angels, I truly know I’m a soul in a body. Furthermore, my soul had things to care about and share that were far more important than vanity or an uncomfortable appearance! So next time you start to criticize your appearance think of me looking like a little walrus in front of that camera and remind yourself, “I am a soul! I am light! I am love! No matter what I look like, feel like, or am experiencing, that is the reality of who I am”! Then let your light shine no matter how you feel you look! Let your love radiate outward from you. THAT is what is beautiful!
The other day I was gazing for a dear young client, channeling God’s love in a big way. She surrendered to the love coming through my eyes and into her being, and suddenly she started seeing us both as big, bright lights until at long last she even saw through my light body to the door behind us… a little excursion into dimensions beyond the solid one. Something like that changes you – you can no longer pretend that this physical form is all we are.
So, as you look yourself in the mirror today, bring love into the observation. Look into your eyes until you see the light of your soul burning brightly within them. It may take awhile to stop the self-criticisms that so many of us have adopted by habit, but when your mind is finally silent, you can look at yourself with the wonder and awe of a child beholding someone without a shred of judgment. Then you will see or feel that light and know this is what you truly are. You are all so beautiful – love shaped in billions of different forms!