The angel message nearly had me in tears. I felt the love emanating from them as they dictated. Truly we are all so very loved. It feels good to sit in that love, breathe, and receive it as the angels have often recommended.
It used to be hard for me to be with myself. I will never forget the first time I discovered the joys of solitude. I was in my thirties, had been recently dumped. and since I was working so much overtime I decided to take time off and go to Hawaii. I booked the flights and the room and set off on what looked like a glorious adventure.
It shocked me that the first two days it was nearly impossible to feel good. I wasn’t lonely. I didn’t feel sad. I just felt as if every moment I ought to be sharing all the beauty with someone else – as if it wasn’t OK for me to take it all in for myself. It felt so eerily silent too. I was used to filling the time with talk, helping others, doing, doing – incessantly doing. Now I was alone, just “being,” without goal or purpose other than to enjoy the day. I couldn’t relax and wondered what was wrong with me.
Walking on the beach, it initially hit me, “I am allowed to enjoy life alone! It can be just as fulfilling. I can take in all of this beauty, just for me, whether or not there is someone else to share it with. I can enjoy time even if it isn’t helping someone else. It isn’t selfish! It is self-loving!” I realized that after I gave up my identify of being “smart and professional” when I quiet engineering, I created a new one of “always being there” for others. In that moment, my identity melted into something far simpler – I was just Ann, a woman enjoying her life. And that was enough.
I turned towards the sea, breathed in the salty air, and shut my eyes as the wind blew my hair into a tangled mess. Warm with sun, cool with the waves on my feet, and blessed with an ah-ha realization that it was OK to just “be” and to “just enjoy life,” I opened my heart and allowed the energy of life itself to penetrate my entire being. Body and soul, I felt love beyond compare. The rest of the vacation was pure, unadulterated bliss. I have never been the same. I take great joy in silence and solitude now. These are the moments when I lose my small self, and dissolve into a sense of connection with all of life.Bliss.
Because of this quarantine has not been a challenge at all. I have great compassion, however for the many souls who are finding it difficult to suddenly slow down, and “be” with themselves or only those close. Solitude or limited social exposure coupled with feelings of “not being in control,” can bring up both the best and the worst. We either draw forth a spiritual and emotional strength from within, or we fall into feelings of fear, anger frustration, and tantrums.
In any case, we must learn to “be” with ourselves now. There is no other choice for many.
This is a gift.
It is time to learn to “be” with ourselves and love ourselves, no matter what.It is time to embrace the hurt, angry, frustrated, and fearful children within. It is time to own your talents and share them as you can. It is time to take care of your own heart, and to dream. Dream of the futures you wish to create until you dream them into existence within so they can manifest in your outer life when things get moving.
In my work I’ve talked to many people who are finding time to start businesses, or dream them into being. I’ve talked to some who are enjoying time with family and others who are realizing that it is time to leave an unhealthy situation. I’ve talked to others who feel stir-crazy, bored, frustrated, fearful, and impatient. It seems that in our quarantine, we are seeing all that we have ignored within. It is time to make friends with both our light and our darkness.
Even though it is so hard for so many right now, it is a chance to look into our own hearts and discover more deeply what we find within. It is a chance to make peace with our less than loving vibrations, and to love them into the light. It is a chance to manifest, to learn, to connect in creative ways. It is precious time to spend feeling, healing, and creating. It will be over soon enough.
Why not make good use of it by asking ourselves the angels’ questions: “Who will I be when this is over? How will I have grown? What improvements have I made inside of myself that will cause a happier resonance in my life in the future?”
Here are some pointers to assist…
1. Take time in silence and solitude to question
Even if you are at home with others, find time alone. Shut the door to a room. Go outside. Take a safe, socially distanced, masked walk. Breathe. Feel deeply. Ask yourself, “Who do I want to be when this is over? What habits do I want to change? How can I start to make those changes now?” Journal if you like. Get deeply acquainted with yourself, and assess yourself honestly, without judgment. What needs to change
2. Make small changes each day
At the beginning of each day promise yourself to make one small change to become the person you wish to be.
Suppose for example, you wish to be more confident sharing your gifts – writing, counseling, art, storytelling, branding, you name it. Challenge yourself to do so in a small way each day, perhaps with a friend, perhaps on social media, perhaps just practicing at home. Journal your progress.
Suppose you wish to change a habit – speaking more tenderly, walking taller, getting up and exercising, being more motivated. First research (Google) and read inspiring ways others have changed that habit, then challenge yourself to make small changes. Document progress.
Every day is a gift. Every day we can make small changes to become closer and closer to the person we wish to be.
3. Celebrate Success!
Reward yourself for making small changes. Compliment yourself. Be accountable to a friend or social media peers whom you’ve challenged to do the same. Journal or document progress. Take selfies of the “new you” and watch how you change. Every minor decision to be the person you want to become, is really a major shift in energy.
It is a rare and difficult time on earth. It is also a rare opportunity. I wish to come out of this more organized, balanced, and committed to my own self-care. Who do you wish to be? Time to start being that person now…
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