I channeled the angel message last week but didn’t have a personal story to go with it, so I asked the angels for different message last week. They told me to save this one. Little did I know I’d have the perfect story this week!
This is a long story – another episode of the mystic-reality-show that is my life, so grab a cup of tea or coffee and enjoy. There is a happy ending, I promise! This is one of those, “well Ann isn’t perfect yet and she’s still having challenges and learning” stories 🙂
I continue where I left off last week… I was happier that ever, feeling wonderful, and on top of the world, when I accidentally tired myself out and let down my guard. I decided to go grocery shopping late one night after a long day of work and deep cleaning my house. I forgot to put the light of protection around me. I normally don’t need it when my own light is bright, but I was a bit tired and forgot.
Now let me say before I go on, that this sort of thing didn’t happen to me when I was “just talking to angels” years ago. However, as I started working more and more in the Oneness, the angels cautioned me, “Ann, Oneness, means oneness. All of life, in all dimensions. You have to learn to dance with ALL frequencies if you want this. You have to learn to see love and be love no matter what. Anything less might attract those other energies lost in illusion.” In plain terms, that means that I either stay in my light, intended to be surrounded by the light of protection, or risk lower vibrational energies jumping onto me and clinging. When I started gazing five years, ago I had to become even more impeccable with my energy.
Sometimes I still forget.
So there I was in the grocery store, and I had my coupons with me. I had the urge to just leave the unused ones on the shelf, but I felt a tug from some part of my soul to approach an elderly couple that looked very unhappy and offer the coupons to them. It wasn’t an intuitive or angelic tug. Those feel joyous. Instead it felt like some part of my soul just wanted them to know they were loved. Usually that feels wonderful. This night it felt exhausting. I wasn’t listening to my present day self. So I went over to hand them the coupons, and immediately got jumped by a spirit that had been attached to the woman.
By the time I got home I was breaking out in stinging nerve pain and shingles. The spirit was still attached to my liver and gallbladder and that hurt like crazy. I knew I was in for a long night. My first question to the angels was rather ungraceful. “What the…?”
They told me that the spirit who jumped me was a past life fragment of the woman. In a past life, she was in a crowd jeering righteously at a witch burning. Apparently I was the one getting toasted. This fragment of her soul had not gone into the light, they explained. It was in the astral plane, and recognized my spirit. It was angry that I was alive! They explained this was why I had the urge to “make nice” even when I didn’t honestly feel like it. I was basically trying to say at some unconscious level, “Its OK! Forgive yourself. I’m fine.” Goodness. I know the angels aren’t kidding, but sometimes I still feel crazy and like my life is a multidimensional freak show!
However, there was no time to question or feel victimized by the story. I still had one rather unpleasant spirit aiming hatred at me. I did what I know to do. I told the spirit I loved her and wanted her to go into the light and be happy. This one was stubborn however, so I envisioned the light filling me and emanating from me, and sent her so much love that she finally took off.
I then commanded the shingles to leave immediately. I have had enough experience with that to know it is my body’s over-reaction to angry energies. To heal something quickly I know I have to be no-nonsense, focused solely on the outcome, and have full faith. The stinging stopped and the bumps started going down. I had a moment of incredible satisfaction.
I decided as long as I was “cleaning house” I might as well command my liver and gallbladder to completely release any trapped anger and frustration at myself for choosing to be a martyr in many lives and to do so immediately. I forgot to intend “joyful and gentle.” My body listened. I instantly went into a full-blown gallbladder attack. I didn’t even know that was a thing until that moment!
On one hand I hurt so badly I could barely breathe, but on the other I was incredibly amused because I realized that I’d just created this quite powerfully. I felt the angels swarm in around me. They looked at me with tender love and intense compassion for my own spiritual insanity.
I heard them clearly, giving me step by step instructions for the next several hours. “We’ll get you through this Ann. You’re going to clear some obstructions you didn’t even know were in there. It’s going to hurt like crazy, but you’ll be OK by around 1 or 2am. Drink tons of water, but don’t gulp.” Like midwives coaching a mother giving birth they got me to breathe, sip, and progressively relax until my liver and gallbladder did indeed clear something that needed to go! I don’t know what I would have done without their exact and tender guidance.
In bed finally, I did the programming exercise. “I release martyrdom, frustration with myself, pain, and all illusions that are not born of the light! I wake up feeling amazing, clear, and deeply aware of the Presence within.” I imagined the feeling. I fell into a deep and restful sleep and woke up feeling like a new woman, albeit a little tired and achy from the misadventure.
Something deep and old had finally been released. I no longer felt like any part of my soul was frustrated or angry with myself about the choices I’ve made throughout lifetimes. I can now look back at things this life that were once deeply upsetting and feel only love and gratitude for the souls involved and lessons learned. It feels remarkable. I intend to go deeper into this, imagining every night that I wake up the next day filled with more love and light.
Thankfully, most of you will never have to go through such extremes. My work in the Oneness, and especially the gazing does lend itself to standards of impeccability with energetic and personal boundaries that I am still learning to uphold.
Nonetheless, for all problems great and small we can die unto the old self and resurrect an even better one, starting with intentions before bed and then with firm resolve throughout the day.
Here are a few pointers to do just that….
1. Before bed, review your day
What would you do differently? How could you be more loving to yourself or others? More faithful? More focused on what you want? Don’t beat yourself up. Just review as an observer.
Who would you like to be tomorrow morning? Imagine you are already that. Imagine waking up healthy, happy, and enthusiastic. Imagine yourself as the most loving and gracious soul. Imagine being a person who takes impeccable care of yourself. Imagine whatever “you” that you want to be. As you do so, feel as if it is real.
2. Anchor the feelings in the morning
The second you wake up and remember, recall the feelings you had the night before. Imagine being the you that you want to be. Resolve to do your best to “be” this person today.
This is not about resolving what you are going to “do” or accomplish throughout the day. It is resolving to “be” a certain type of person – loving, gracious, feeling abundant, loved, healthy, whatever you like.
3. Reinforce throughout the day
Throughout the day check in. Maybe you can set reminders on your phone. Are you being who you want to be? If not don’t beat yourself up. Just readjust.
This is a powerful exercise that works with both the subconscious and conscious mind to help you shift and transform into the person you truly want to become, and it works… even in my crazy life!