So many people are experiencing outbursts and upsets as of late. Everything hidden within us is coming up and out. Even mother earth is bursting at her seams as evidenced by the frequency of earthquakes and such going on these days. Growth is in the air. It IS time for a resurrection of our spirits and the death of old illusions as the angels said. It IS time to bring the light within us to the surface. It IS time to choose love - no matter what.

For some reason it has hit me lately how precious and truly how short our lives are, even if we live to be really old. It has hit me how ridiculous and a waste of precious time it is to stay upset for long. Better to fix a situation or move on, choose love or leave. Grow or Go, as the angels say. Choose love. Choose it again and again no matter what. It feels better. This is the blossoming of the soul - to release the sweetness of God's love out into the world without condition.

The reality is we are eternal beings. We come to this school called earth to learn about love. We play these roles for one another that can really hard at times. But in the long run, after we transition, we are thankful for our tough teachers, because they helped us find something deeper within ourselves if we take the lesson to heart. And they help us come to know ourselves as more loving beings if we strive to find the love. If we do our homework, they help us see ourselves as the angels that we truly are.

I know I'm going through a big growth phase lately because people from my past are showing up in either meditaiton or in my life. Its kind of like a mini life review and a completion. It means I'm growing into greater joy and leaving pain behind. I recently did a LOT of work to release old fear and tightness within my body (through prayer, energy work, etc.) because although I do not feel afraid in my mind or emotions, my body still had a tendency to scrunch up when around people I used to find scary. After one particularly intense prayer when I felt huge release and relief, I knew I had finally let something old leave me once and for all. The next day I got an email from a man I had not seen in 18 years. He apologized for sexually harrassing me at work when I was in my young twenties. He had found my website and wanted to make peace. I thanked him, told him truthfully I had let it go along time ago and cried my eyes out with gratitude and relief the love that now flowed once again between our souls. He was a friend before the hurtful behaviors. I'm not talking about feeling warm fuzzies, but rather feeling a respect for the difficult dance we shared and the lessons learned. I was glad for both me and him because it showed that he had grown and found peace, and I had grown and released the old fears.

We are all one human family. We all support one anothers' growth and even the hurtful souls (who are hurting within themselves) are helping us seek out greater love and compassion. They help us acknowledge and finally own that we are worthhy of kindness, and if we dig deep enough, they can also motivate us to find a love and compassion we didn't even know we were capable of feeling.

When Jesus said "Love your enemies" he didn't say you had to like them. Its not ok if people mistreat you or hurt you. You can walk away or create good boundaries at the human level, but LOVE them because they teach you. They teach you that you are capable of greater compassion for yourself. They teach you that you are capable of forgiveness. They help you if you allow for it, look deep within and ask yourself what part of you is in need of healing. They help you find greater love for yourself. And when this life is over you will appreciate the fact that they catalyzed your growth into greater light.

Life is too short to stay angry. If someone has wronged you, let it go. Move one. Make a resolve not to allow that again but let it go. Its time to say no to holding on to anger (ok to feel it, but then do something about it; don't let it fester), and to say YES to love.

Love is, after all, our deepest truth.

Happy Easter, Happy Mayan New Year, Happy Spring,
Happy Full Moon, Happy life!

It never fails. When I surrender to the moment, the angel messages are so much easier to allow through me. This one hit me before breakfast on Thursday morning. I "accidentally" set the alarm clock an hour early and had more time. I was simply answering emails when it dropped in.

I have really learned, per the angels' teachings, to surrender to the natural rhythms within me. For the last many months I've been resting and resting. I told God that I thought I'd be ready to go back out in the world, this time according to His terms, after mid-Feb. I also told God that I wanted to share his love and inspiration with a lot of people in the world without burning myself out. Well, when I have more info I'll let you know but it appears that in the not too distant future I'm going to be on a radio show with over 3 million listeners :)!!! I am beyond excited. I get to share spiritual information with a lot of people without burning myself out!! I had a chance to be on this show, last minute, last Friday but I had an out of town friend in that I had promised to take out for dinner for her birthday and couldn't cancel on her so I've been told they'll get back to me with new dates. I will let you know soon as I know :) It could be a few months or a few weeks. I'm surrendered and excited.

All of the sudden as well I've had this surge of energy to start finishing projects I've started...thus the new CD, and yet one more book on the drawing board. I have no idea which book will be finished next - I cannot seem to write them in any order. I just go with the one that calls me when I sit to write. Sooner or later one emerges as the passionate project and gets finished. This is how I've cranked out four books and numerous CDs in the last few years. Sure it is a lot of work, but as I live according to my own rhythms, its happy work and doesn't feel like struggle.

I know we all have schedules. I have schedules where I see new people every hour several days of the week. There's not much room to give during those times, but it is in my unscheduled time that I allow the rhythms of my heart to surface. If the housecleaning doesn't get done on its usual day because I need rest, I rest. If all of the sudden I feel like doing a project when I had planned to do something else I change gears. My friends have gotten used to me being 'flaky' Ann and not always being able to schedule things till last minute, and the ones that need more rigid schedules have dropped away for the most part because we simply want different things.

This isn't the only way to live, nor the right way, but it is a way that makes life very carefree and guided because in a way, I've given my life and heart over to God and said, "Hey you drive!! I trust you'll get us where we want to go!" and sure enough, my life takes more wonderful turns than I could have planned on my own.

We are individuals and yet we are part of something so much greater - the entirety of God and his creation. And being made in his image and likeness, we are each perfect buds of expression waiting to bloom. Like the bee in the picture above, the more we allow ourselvse to BE who we really are, the more beautiful sweetness we find in life.

I was just about to go to bed on Wednesday night when the urge to run to the computer hit me and the angel message poured out. I love it when I can listen to that movement! The newsletter is so much easier to channel when I do. And when I don't, its a big struggle.

I've been really dancing with this issue as of late. I've been loving my life, relaxing, reading, and talking with God and my angels in my spare time. Although I have nearly ten books and several CDs started on my computer I have not been at all motivated to work on any of them! Instead I've been taking care of my body and refilling my soul. That was fine for two months and then all of the sudden old patterns hit... "Should I be producing something? Am I ever going to be inspired to teach or write again? Is God really wanting me out in the world and what should I do about it." The answer always is very loud. "RELAX!" Its been a theme for a lot of lightworkers lately too! Being human I go to my angel cards and pick a few... NATURE, PLAY, HONOR YOUR TRUTH... I get it. I'm supposed to be relaxing now before the next wave of activity hits. Never fails. I relaxed for a long time before "Love is the River" poured out of me. I relaxed again for a long time before releasing "Whispers of the Spirit." I can't wait to see what comes next. I started getting hints for one of the books I'm working on and got inspired for a little while tonight. We shall see what God wants from me, but for now it is to take care of myself and tune, exercise, and stretch my body to more gracefully receive the higher frequencies.

The wonderful part of all this is that I'm feeling everything even more deeply. The psychic stuff is coming in stronger. I feel the earth in fact as if she were my own body. Speaking of which, pray that she releases the pressure building up within her gracefully and gradually. There's a whole lot of movement deep within her, and I think we can all help release the pressure by making sure we don't blow up when we get irritated, and that we release our stresses and pressures with relaxation... oh, ok, as I type this I realize why the angels want me to sit still!! Earth needs our holographic support to keep from having her stresses build up to the point of sudden movement and change. She would rather do her changes more gracefully too but she is a reflection of our collective soul and we have to be kinder to ourselves as well.

That said, have a very beautiful week. I'm going to take some time to get outdoors again this weekend as I did last Saturday and enjoy the beautiful carpet of wildflowers in the desert while they last; it usually isn't long. There is such beauty in each moment. As the poet Robert Herrick says:

Gather ye roses while ye may,
Old time is still a-flying;
A world where beauty fleets away
Is no world for denying.
Come lads and lasses, fall to play
Lose no more time in sighing

Have a blessed week,
Ann

There is a whole lotta shakin' going on right now on this planet. For some reason everyone tells me about earthquakes or I'm motivated to check the web at times, and good grief, there are changes galore. Its no wonder everyone is coming in to my office with major life events as of late - dealing with deaths, starting companies, huge relationship shake ups or breakups - change is indeed in the air. Its SO important these days to stop, breathe, and remember love.

I've been challenged to practice more and more tolerance of differing opinions as of late. I saw a TV show on one of my favorite celebrities. As well as presenting all the people who loved her, the show interviewed a woman who ran a website for all the people that disliked this celebrity - and some of the posts on it were quite hateful. At first I got upset... "How could anyone waste their time running a website to cut down another person!?" I started steaming but the angels got on my case, and said, "ANN, Now would be a nice time to practice choosing love." I knew they were right. Not loving feels bad these days. Loving feels good. It is easy to love people you agree with. Its easy to love people whom you feel love and agree with you. But the real mastery is to love those you don't agree with, don't like, or don't understand. It bugged me that I couldn't find love for this woman with whom I disagreed. I usually can. In fact one of my dear friends and teachers whom I love and adore is someone with whom I have no agreement whatsoever on most any topic of conversation we could choose!

But how to love someone who promotes hatred and cutting down another person? I was at a real loss so I prayed. The angels suggested I write to her and ask her if she'd help me understand her point of view. So I did. I told her I was a spiritual instructor and always sought to understand people. I told her I was all for people allowing each other their perspectives and that I realized I would be a hypocrite if I didn't allow her to feel the way she did, but that I wanted to understand her, because I loved the celebrity she hated. I let it go - no judgment, no trying to manipulate her into changing her views, just a good old fashioned innocent and honest question. And to my surprise and delight, she wrote back, very kindly and shared her heart with me. She said she felt bad that the site had gained such huge attention as a 'hate' site - that it started as a joke because she was annoyed by this celebrity's mannerisms, and that she felt as long as the celebrity had no problem with her it was ok to share her views. I thanked her, blessed her for helping ME learn to be more tolerant and was able to find peace with this.

While this is a small example, God knows we are all presented with people whose points of views differ widely from our own. It is inevitable here upon this earth because earth is a one room school house with a diverse group of students. I have learned from interactions with people dear to me that agreement is not necessary as long as there is love. And if we can't love right away, we can at least seek to understand. After all, everybody wants to be understood and if you give someone the courtesy of listening to their perspective without trying to change them, they tend to soften up. If you share your own view with no need for agreement, but just as a way of sharing the God-light within you, people care to listen more.

We spend so much time upon this earth, battling with our wills, arguing, seeking attention, approval, and agreement, and yet the angels have taught me that this is a waste of time. Expression IS important. Speaking your truth with loving kindness and compassion, and allowing other the same makes for a peaceful world, better relationships, and deepend understandings.

Try it - next time you feel quick to judge, tell someone you don't understand them and would like to. Allow them to share, and just listen. Don't try to change them. Don't change your own perspective. Just seek out the common ground of the heart. Magic happens in these spaces. Wars are resolved within your own heart and within others. You may never want to be around the person you disagree with but at least then you can leave in peace with understanding and a degree of respect for their spirit.

This reminds me of a prayer that was attributed to St. Francis of Assisi....

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,grant that I may
not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Be the love you seek and watch it come back over and over again. Love yourself first. Honor your own feelings. Honor your own heart. From that space you are full and can offer love to others. I keep making that choice in my life lately over and over, even when its hard, and as a result I feel good. Truly loving never makes you feel like a doormat or a victim or a martyr, if you include loving yourself. The hard but loving discussions are worth it. The times we put aside pride and come from the heart are worth it. The times we stop trying to please others and share our own truth with love are worth it. This is the real deep meaning of peace - to be who we really are, and to allow others to be who they choose to be as well.

I was concerned this week about finding time to do the newsletter and yet I had no desire to force it to happen sooner than it was ready to arrive. It is nearly impossible for me to schedule these since the angels choose when they want to channel them and nothing I can do to force them makes them happen sooner. So, when a client cancelled at the last minute, it was not a surprise that the angels were ready to dictate their segment.

I have taken their words to heart this year. I have been literally watching my thoughts carefully and the minute a negative thought comes in, I tell it, "Go to your room! You're not welcome in my consciousness anymore. That is not my truth! Go into the light or go away!" No matter what. There is always temptation to buy into our worries, fears, negativities, etc. We are human after all. Feelings are neutral, neither positive or negative; however thoughts can truly ruin our day.

This week the thoughts that I was banishing had to do with urgency. Tuesday, I had a full day of clients, couldn't keep up with the emails, found out the artwork on five CDs needed to be changed because the publisher changed its specifications, and was asked to provide a new photo for a DVD cover on my lunch break! For just a moment panic set in! There was no way I could accomplish everything everyone needed me to do timely fashion. I started to stress out, then truth struck - God does not require me to rush, feel stressed, or even 'accomplish' anything. I decided I would have to be behind on the emails, I could fix the CD artwork that night, and offered an alternative suggestion for the photo if it was needed immediately, or offered to take a new one the next day. Miraculously everything fell into place once again. So what if the photo used wasn't my best shot, or if the CD covers got updated later than I had hoped? The world didn't end, all I needed to accomplish got done, and everyone ended up happy.

I used to run around feeling stressed, hurried, worried, overworked and living in fear that if I didn't accomplish everything on my almighty to-do list my life would fall apart or I would be so hopelessly buried in work that I would never catch up. That became the reality I attracted - I never did catch up. I worked all the time, but never felt focused. Now I rush a lot less, get a lot more done, and have time to enjoy life too. I have cut back tremendously on things I used to think I had to do to be happy and as a result, I am happier. I focus more on my own priorities and am able to serve others in a better way. I know that God cares about us so much that we are not required to sacrifice any one of our precious present moments in pursuit of an imagined future.

Urgency is just fear wearing another mask. It is the fear that if we don't hurry up and get something done we'll fail to get what we want in the future. It says, "Rush, hurry, hurry or you may lose out." Of course we have deadlines to meet, bills to pay on time, and commitments in our job. However, so much of our urgency is self-created. If we run around in a panic about the future we attract all sorts of insanity. If however, we arrange our priorities in the moment by slowing down and asking, "What is truly important to me NOW?" then our future seems to unfold with grace.

Wednesday after work, it was important to me to get some fresh air. I started out in one direction but my heart wanted to go another way so I turned the car around and ended up at a local mountain park wearing shoes and clothes that were totally inappropriate for hiking. Nonetheless the air was fresh, the clouds were scudding across the sky, bringing in a storm, and the desert was practically electrified with life. I got out of the car, grabbed my keys and camera and started to walk a little way along the trail. Pretty soon I got lost in the moment. It was so beautiful! I had to go a step further, and then a little further. I wasn't thinking about where I was going or how long I would walk. I wasn't thinking about ruining my shoes or clothing. I wasn't worried about getting caught out after dark or even whether or not I would end up in the rain. Instead, I was in a state of gratitude and awe, as I watched the dark clouds rolling in. The desert smelled like moist dirt and the red cactus spikes stood out in sharp contrast to the green grasses. The wildflowers that were getting ready to pop, bent and swayed in the breeze. The rocks crunched beneath my inappropriate shoes and the cool air filled my lungs. I didn't realize it but I was walking faster and faster, fueled by the joyous feeling of moving in such a state of grace. Before I realized what I was doing, I had become one with the wind itself. My mind was unhurried or unworried, and as the state of ecstatic union with everything overcame me, I realized I was nearly running. Something told me this is what the cheetah feels like when he dashes, or the wolf when he lopes, or the dolphin when she races through the oceans. I felt like pure energy moving amidst fields of energy all around me. The movement was fluid, graceful, and unrushed, even though I realized I was moving very quickly. I felt no fatigue whatsoever, only the ecstatic joy of being part of this beautiful moment. Feeling as if no time had elapsed at all, I realized I had hiked over a mile to a spot where I like to sit and pray, overlooking both the city and the mountains. I stopped, zapped back into normal human reality and realized my lungs were heaving in and out from the exertion that I hadn't even noticed. I sat on my favorite rock and sang God's praises. To my great surprise, although I haven't hiked that far in ages, I woke up the next morning with no soreness or fatigue whatsoever.

When we don't rush, we move faster. When we don't worry about the future, we get farther. When we enjoy the moment, we open up to magical surprises. Life moves more fluidly. It doesn't hurt. It gives way before us rather than rising up against us.

Try it. Try to resist that panic'd sense of urgency in your life. Try to be present in each moment. Try to focus on your own priorities rather than everyone else's. Yes paying your bills on time is your own priority! Getting to work on time is as well if you want a paycheck! But check in often and see if you are truly listening to yourself, or the tugs and pulls around you. Then, watch just how much more you can accomplish when you are in integrity with yourself one moment at a time :)

Have a lovely week - every single 604,800 seconds of it!!!

Every year I look forward to the Tuscon Gem and Mineral show with great anticipation. Its one of the hugest gatherings of rock, gem, and mineral vendors from all over the world, and only a short two hour drive from my home. There are people from all over the world, crystals bigger than I am, and thousands of happy people milling about in awe of Mother Nature's great and amazing splendors. There are men from Africa selling beads and drums, gentlemen from Pakistan selling green onyx vases and dishes, fossil vendors from Madagascar, Brazilians marketing their country's breathtaking crystals, Chinese and Indian vendors selling a host of beautiful beads, natives of Tibet selling bowls, and pendants, Egyptian vendors selling belly dance jewelry, Russians and Poles selling amber, and souls who travel the globe at the first news of a meteor shower, selling rocks from outer space!

There are more handicrafts from all over the world than I have ever seen in one place. The show is a delight to the senses - tastes from around the world, textues and textiles, sounds of music, and oh the sights of those giant rocks and minerals! However, the greatest wonder about this show is that there are people from all different countries and all corners of the globe, all gathered in one place - each of them somehow communicating with the others and with their customers in spite of the language barriers. They smile, wave, hugs, and greet each other with the universal language of love. Sure its business, but I've rarely seen so much joy when so much business is being conducted. Most people here seems to genuinely love what they do. Who wouldn't when surrounded with such beauty and great energy :)

Events like these help me imagine what heaven on earth would be like. A gentleman from India smiles gently at a Chinese woman who says in broken English, "Look around. Compare prices. Maybe be back." A Brazilian guy smiles at me and makes gestures to tell me I must be strong as I attempt to pick up one of the big rocks. We communicate without words. One year, a Pakistani gentleman gave me a dollar from his country - to rememer him next year, he tells me. I can't forget. Ed, the wonderful man selling amethyst gave me a big hug this year, and remembered my name from last year.

I pray that we can create such warmth and kindness and loving allowance for each. I make it a point to smile and share the love I am feeling in my heart with everyone I can lately. I take time to refill my spirit every day - telling God I am ready to receive all the love he wants to pour into my life. I feel warmth, tingling, and joy pouring in my being. My heart feels so huge it could burst. I have my human moments to be sure. Always have and always will, but the more I open to receive, the more wonder and magic I find all around me. ETs have been showing up in my living room giving me free chiropractic adjustments. Flashes of color and light are showing up more often, and I find such JOY in the smallest things in life - stringing beads to make a necklace, playing with the dogs, cooking a meal. I can't even describe lately how nothing has changed on the outside but something deep and wonderful is clicking into place on the inside. I'm learning to surrender to my heart in each moment, to live now and trust the future to work itself out, to love NOW, and give rather than waiting to receive, and in giving I do receive. I am learning to just find the bliss in BEing rather than always having to produce something. And as a result, I have more love to give.

Open to receive every day. Mean it and know you're worthy of it. Then prepare for miracle of joy in the moments of your life.

Before I share my article, my heart and prayers go out to the
victims of the recent tornadoes in the US south. I ask God to help
hold and comfort and care for all who have been affected. If you
are inclined, please pray with me.

Whenever opposing energies meet, there is great, sudden, and often violent movement. This happened in the case of the tornadoes. Unseasonably warm air clashed with the cold winter air and the result was chaos. Out of chaos, angels say, there will always be greater order and greater love. I cry too watching the news but at the same time the angels remind me that the ones we lose, they find and bring into the comfort and glory of God's love in heaven.

As above so below.

I didn't realize that there were going to be tornadoes in my own psyche this week. I have been in bliss ever since our prayers requesting that the asteroid pass by worked. After spending that entire weekend practically either out of body with the angels, or communicating with wonderful people about prayers, I felt my soul. I felt expanded and joyous and the only challenge was grappling with feeling so big and at the same time so human! Somehow the mundane stuff seemed less interesting after the profound love I felt moving through my heart and the hearts of so many in prayer, and there is always a little loneliness that sets in upon coming back to earth. The nearest thing I can describe is what Near Death Experiencers feel - one minute you're flying with angels in the Oneness of creation and the next you're on earth thinking about grocery shopping! It is quite the dichotomy. I managed to balance out again and felt better than ever.

Monday I had a fantastic, productive, and restful day. I finished work early, had time to goof off, do crafts, and even spontaneously jump in the car with my camera to chase rainbows around town and grab a few photos. I felt like I was in heaven and went to be giving thanks for my life.

So it was a total surprise when I woke up the middle of Monday night plastered with a nasty vibration that felt like electric shocks and static combined, after having horrid dreams of explosions derailing a train I was on, and various people betraying me and trying to throw my work off track. My stomach felt beaten, and my head was aching. I've been through this before, and I knew this was a vibration that seeks to pull us away from our good. This is an energy that tends to rise up when the world is stirred up. It feeds off chaos and is attracted to any tiny shred of doubt, fear, or upset that it finds within us. Like the opposing forces that caused the tornadoes, this is the dark that seeks to tango with the light within us. Dark energies don't know they're part of God and so they act independently trying to feed off the discordance they cause in others. They have no real power except what we give them.

Rather than doing battle, getting upset, or reacting (which only feeds it) I went within and asked the angels how I allowed for this. I knew that I've had a much higher vibration of love flowing through me than ever before, and I also know that this comes with greater accountability for my thoughts. Its easy to get off balance until you stabilize and get used to a new vibration and I knew that this increased flow was new to me. Walking in a stream is easy. Wading in a river requires more concentration and balance until you become accustomed to the current!

The angels pointed out that I had been having tiny shreds of doubt about whether or not it was ok to goof off in my spare time instead of beginning a new book. It was true! I DID have those ridiculous thoughts on Monday. Never mind that we steered an asteroid away from earth with our prayers a few weeks ago, or that I counsel several hundred people a month between readings and emails - nope, I forgot all that in a moment of doubt and felt like I should be doing more. That false sense of urgency - total spiritual insanity - allowed the world's chaos to creep right into my energy field during my sleep!

Luckily I've been through this before. I banished my doubts, affirmed that God blesses both my work and my play, and called in archangel Michael to clean up my aura. Flaming hot energy shot up my spine and my body instantly felt better. I took a salt bath, cleaned the house, and did laundry just to clean off the reside and went about having a very good day.

The world was stirred up this week, without doubt. The asteroid's ripples in the energetic pond are being felt, the tornadoes wreaked havoc in the southern US, presidential candidates were duking it out for positions, and the news announced we "are officially be in a recession." Many of my psychic friends and clients reported feeling a little 'off kilter,' cranky, and not quite right in their bodies. If you felt odd, you're not alone! And if you didn't, thank heaven!!

The good news is that we are in charge of our own energies and nothing can disturb us or keep us off balance when we stand in the truth of God's love, and in our own light. As I watched the news of the storms and saw the pictures, I was amazed that every now and then one house was left standing amidst total rubble and chaos of the others right next to it. Why that one? Maybe it had a firmer foundation and stronger walls. Maybe the vibration and prayers of those who owned it were powerfully faithful... Maybe both.

When you suddenly feel different than the day before, or when you feel off with no apparent reason, you may be feeling the world. In these cases, go within, reaffirm your goodness, banish any doubts about your life, yourself, and what you are manifesting, and refuse to believe in anything less than the truth of God's love for you, as you are now. Rest, eat right, meditate, and go back to basics. In no time, you'll be in charge of your own energy again and you can let the world do what it needs to do to learn while you live in peace.

Have a blessed week.
Love and hugs,
Ann