The Search

Oh God forgive me,
still I long to find you
in a soul outside myself -

Someone else
to dust off my dreams
and take them off the shelf

Someone to mirror
all that I
cannot yet see I'll be

Someone else beside myself
to show me You in me.

Will there come a day
when I'll be strong
no longer need
no longer long
for validation
praise and love

and all those thoughts
that make me think
that there's a reason
for my being,

Something I'm not seeing

Something making me
feel as if
I deserve
the love
you planted deep inside
to set me free.

Who will show me this
Oh God?
Who else,
if not me?